Years back, I was abandoned with pregnancy and, I felt my world crumbling before me. I felt all eyes were on me. I heard lots of people mocking me. I was called lots of names like a prostitute, gold digger, and much more. I was told to my face by someone I called a friend that it was my fault.
I hid my face in shame & I became so depressed and sad and, I cried every single night.
I saw myself falling apart and hiding in a world of my own. I have withdrawn into my shell like a snail that I became ashamed to associate with people.
I was just two months pregnant when I was being abandoned. The whole situation became worse when I was five months pregnant. I need to go for a checkup to know the gender of the baby. That was when I entered into another phase that almost took my life.
Laying down in that hospital bed, I could feel my heart racing and not knowing what to expect, but at the same time, my trust and faith were in God alone. I have three other children and, here am I expecting the fourth one and the person that was supposed to be by me left me.
The doctor looked at me and asked me a question. How are you feeling? My reply was, I’m okay by God’s grace.
Then he told me, I am afraid we need to send you to a bigger hospital, where they have all the facilities to monitor you and the child till the due date because I’m afraid there will be a need for a second opinion.
Hmmmm! It was like everything started turning around and, to be honest, I became so scared. I was referred to a bigger hospital where I would have to travel for more than an hour every week.
Is it that serious I asked the doctor, but the answer I got was enough to realize that I was on a journey that only God was able to lead me through. Each one of us has a story to tell. It might be a painful and sad one or, it might be a joyous one. The truth is, tell it anyway because some people might be waiting to hear and learn from you. That is why I put all my experiences in a book titled Light Shining Through Darkness. When you have the opportunity to read this book, you will come in agreement with me that indeed God is a lovely father that will never leave nor forsake us. If God can preserve me and turn my sad story into a testimony, is He not more than able to do it for you over and over again?
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Remember I’m your sister Christ.